Letting Go to Let More In—Closing Down a Business
I spent the last few years paying for a website I wasn’t using. We’ve all been there, right? Buy domain after domain in hopes of developing that perfect idea you have in your head? Well, this website was my baby. I graduated college in hopes of having this business which, I thought, would make me happy—was my purpose—but just a few days ago, I let it go, and it felt like losing a part of my life.
Lizzy B Loves was part of me since I was still in design school. As passionate creators, we all yearn for expressing our ideas in real life, and for me that was designing invitations for life’s grandest milestones. While it took me a few years to make it official, registering the company and being ‘legit’, in all I nurtured this design baby for the past 11 years.
But it was definitely time to let it go. My life has veered into new territories, more fulfilling ones—easeful delight—and letting go of the Lizzy B Loves website (business) was for sure a weight lifted off my shoulders.
My husband shown more emotion than I did. He saw me attempt to grow this business from the ground up. Many long nights were invested into the website and Etsy shop—it’s not just putting up pretty pictures and hitting publish, you know! —so of course I can empathize in the melancholy he felt as he saw me through this. But for me, it was much easier. It was a simple release.
I deleted all the to-do’s I’d been accumulating throughout the years. Plans and dreams I’d piled up, one on top of the other, and yet I never got to. To me a sign that it was more than enough time, and ready to let go.
As I was transitioning the invitation design portfolio to my new website, knowing that the old website would be deleted by the service provider, it was as if I were driving someone to the airport knowing I would never see them again. That deep heavy feeling in the pit of your stomach as the time approaches, as I copy and pasted the last bit of copy from the last invitation listing to paste into its new home on my personal website. The melancholy was surely there for me, too.
I realized that letting go of what is not working anymore, not holding on for the initial idea of what and why I thought it needed to be, is perfectly fine.
Veering in different directions away from the initial, specific goal you had set for yourself, and towards a better desire that feels truer in the moment—maybe the right reason from the beginning—is the right thing to do in the present. Because when we focus on the precise present moment, all is always well, and we are on the right path to even bigger and grander things!
With much love and gratitude,